Your training is very demanding and absorbing. It takes a great deal of energy and I know cost. You will be tired and if dedicated exhilarated.
My own sitch is one of knowing that I will D, mainly as an abused W. I was a WAW and like you not wayward. My WH cheated almost from day 1 of our M.
I asked the same question, where do I fit, all across the board I saw LBS and although I knew I wasn't an LBS, I had decided BD, although ultimately like you WH left by mutual agreement. He wanted to be wayward and I wanted a loving H. This wasn't it.
I also read about WWs across the board who wanted to repair their R. My WH wasn't in MLC either. He was unfaithfully and trolling for POWs. In essence a particular OW wasn't the issue, he wasn't infatuated with a certain OW. After one dalliance, likely another.
I am telling you this because all of us fit here. Our sitches are unique and we are looking to grow develop and find answers for ourselves. DB is about doing that which works for us, for making changes and the right changes to repair our M or R or create a new one with the same person possibly.
My journey has taken a year and when I arrived I knew it was going to be a long journey, I had a lot of work to do, so that I found boundaries, detachment and freedom from abuse.
So it is.
Anniversaries are hard to work through. You will get there with work on you.
There is nothing you can do to change your WH, that's his journey his job.
I wish you peace
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
