Did I hear you say goal setting? Awesome suggestion!
What can you do to take your mind off the upcoming holiday? I'd start there. What else can you do for yourself as a quick Pick-Me-Up? Sunless tanning? An Easter manicure? Lunch with a girlfriend this weekend? An Easter fashion show with Dazed Boy as our featured model?
Damn, I know how disappointed you must feel. If it helps, I think you're an awfully special lady. And about his reaction to your project, I want to make a side comment.
You said:
Quote: I was super nervous about showing it to him because I wasn't feeling totally confident about it.
Was this really the case or does he have a tendency to squash you when you need a boost?
I know that Mr. Wonderful didn't set out to hurt me, but he often did. I have a book manuscript all written and waiting to publish (I have not aggressively pursued that path since he left, for obvious reasons)--and had given it to him to read when I finished it and my editor friend had a pass through.
I'm still really proud of it. All my friends read it. A bunch of family members read it--including one of my cousins who had visited us for a week from Sydney. I remember coming down to the family room one day to find her in a ball crying on my sofa... I asked what was wrong, and she said she had finished reading and was very moved.
She asked Mr. W. what he had thought about it and he gave her a blank look and said, "I don't know, I haven't read it." She was stunned, because she knew I had finished it the year before.
I've received lots of favorable reviews on it, and my dear H has still not asked to read it. I don't know if it's punishment or fear of being touched? Or maybe even resentment that I can do something better than he can?
My point here is that it sounds as though you sort of knew he wasn't going to give you the boost that you wanted and needed--because you wouldn't have had to remind him you needed one. Am I right? Until he's figured out why he's not happy about your accomplishments, why not seek out someone else whose opinion you really value?
You deserve some kudos and a few atta girls.
Hugs, special one.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
