Give anything for a time machine to go back and fix this.
I know you dont see it now, but that wouldnt have worked. I will not regret my actions in my marriage, because I didnt know any better. I didnt have the tools to do the job. Would you expect a carpenter to build a house without any nails?
For me, I NEEDED to go through this process in order to someday have a successful relationship. I know what I want out of a partnership. I know what I have to give to have a good partnership.
There may be a chance that I can give that to my W someday. But if not, I will have a better, stronger, more fulfilling relationship with whomever it is.
