Thank you all so much for your thoughts about my situation. I agree that if is something that will impoverish me and not allow me to provide for my children, It won't make the most sense to do. I am giving myself some time to think things through. I honestly don't need the money at the moment and feel that I can allow for a slower transition for my children's sake; but of course this is something that I really need to give some thought to.
Yesterday was a hurtful day for me and the W, it began with all speaking in good terms and laughing, but then I had to mention something that was bothering me and found hurtful from my snooping days. Of course, that blew everything up. She continued to tell me how she doesn't love me, miss me, its done with me. How is funny how the tables have flipped, etc. I know that part of this is being said out of anger and to hurt me, making fun of my actions to her friends and in honesty it does hurt. I realize that I don't need my W, I want to be with her and our family but don't need her. I know that I caused this by not knowing to STFU and keep things in and let them be. I put too much importance on wanting to have a say...(something I need to work on).
With that said. I will continue to work on myself, continue letting go of W and of the mean things she is doing and saying. I need to stop giving her so much power, and I need to control myself and my reactions.
Today's PMA
Quote of the Day:
“Dignity
/ˈdignitē/ noun
1. The moment you realize that the person you cared for has nothing intellectually or spiritually to offer you, but a headache.
2. The moment you realize God had greater plans for you that don’t involve crying at night or sad Pinterest quotes.
3. The moment you stop comparing yourself to others because it undermines your worth, education and your parent’s wisdom.
4. The moment you live your dreams, not because of what it will prove or get you, but because that is all you want to do. People’s opinions don’t matter.
5. The moment you realize that no one is your enemy, except yourself.
6. The moment you realize that you can have everything you want in life. However, it takes timing, the right heart, the right actions, the right passion and a willingness to risk it all. If it is not yours, it is because you really didn’t want it, need it or God prevented it.
7. The moment you realize the ghost of your ancestors stood between you and the person you loved. They really don't want you mucking up the family line with someone that acts anything less than honorable.
8. The moment you realize that happiness was never about getting a person. They are only a helpmate towards achieving your life mission.
9. The moment you believe that love is not about losing or winning. It is just a few moments in time, followed by an eternity of situations to grow from.
10. The moment you realize that you were always the right person. Only ignorant people walk away from greatness.” - Shannon L. Alder
