Don't give up on me Rouky. I just thought that things would be getting easier by now. Yoga class last night helped a little. Good point about getting help from siblings. I haven't been reaching out to them much lately. Feeling a little isolated.

As for the medication I will see how this weekend goes and if I don't feel better by Monday I'll call the doctor. I have no experience with this type of medication so don't know what to expect. I feel like I am under incredible stress and not sure if this medication helps with that.

As to your suggestion to look for the positive in my day I will work on that. The weather has been perfect here and I have been lucky enough to have been outside in it and need to be more thankful. I will have S13 this weekend so that will be fun and we will do something together. I am having such a hard time when he isn't with me. The weekend he is with his mom is tough.

Thanks for the encouraging words and the strength you always send my way. Ready to take you up on that drink. Tonight I will have a glass in your honor!

M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.