If your sitch is like others on this board, the breakdown of your M is the product of years of resentment. It takes a very long time to undo all that resentment. Your W is not going to instantly come back because you are making changes. I was told the same thing when I was a newbie. A bit hard to swallow, and I am sorry you are going through it, but the changes you make in you will be permanent no matter the outcome. You will emerge a better person when you're done.

RAI


Me 48 XW 45
lots o' kids
D April 2017