Need advice for a WW who left Part 4

[dwh15]

Had a rough day, not sure why. Just one of those big dips on the emotional coaster. Had a hard time concentrating on work, and spent half the day reading through online forums like DB. Sometimes I still can't believe this is where my life is at. Thoughts of R with WW still pop into my head occasionally, but when I spend any time thinking about it, I just don't see how it could ever work, and I know she's nowhere near that mindset.

In fact, I found out that she spent over 20 minutes today talking with her attorney and I just got aggravated. She's trying to take my kids away from me, and her primary motivation is money - it really does take someone totally self-centered to think that way. I know she loves her kids, but I also know her primary motivation for filing was money because she told me so. She's under the impression she has a big payday coming, and feels entitled to it, in spite of the fact that I have been 95% primary caregiver for the past 7 months, and really something like 60-70% going back for years prior, all while she was out partying like a college girl or spending the night with some OM. It just galls me to no end thinking about it.

So I've reset my frame of mind and am back to being determined to protecting myself and my boys. I asked each of the kids tonight if they liked living with me, and if they wished they could spend more time with mom. I did this w/o trying to persuade them in any way, I just wanted an honest answer. Every single one of them much prefers to be home with me, and was a little nervous about the fact that they may have to start spending more overnights with mom soon. I hate everything about this custody dispute. Will be so relieved to get that meeting over with next week, and try to get this all settled and legal so it can quit being a point of contention between us.