My lizard and her tunnel ...

[AJM]

I can appreciate that, late. What is it you want for your goals that don't include her?

'cause lets face it. She is nobody you know right now. That person is long gone, never to return. The person that may return will be a "different" person.

Not that you can't have a relationship with that person and memories etc. But that person won't be the same person. You'll see what I mean later.

For now, act is if that person is gone. What is it you want for you? Just you. Not the kids and you. Not the W and you. Not the dog and you. Just you.

I found that was the hardest thing I had to do in all of this. Figure out what I really wanted. See, I was so wrapped up in my family life and being a father and a husband and .. that I totally forgot about me. I was ok with that. I figured that was what I was *supposed* to do. It was actually what I needed to do at the time. But it left me with anemic aspirations. I barely knew how to figure out what I wanted. Actually took me the most work.

So what do you want? A year from now? A decade from now? How do you see yourself? Just you. Even if there are others in the picture, they should be fuzzy for this question.

AJ