You guys, all I can say is thanks. You have no idea how much reading your posts has just helped me. rj, TO, betsey, triple & renew thank you so much. Since I left for my trip yesterday I've just been trying to forget that nightmare of a night, but reading your advice and thought-provoking questions has kind of helped me to get a handle on things and see that I can (and will!) be able to do this. I have a lot to think about, you guys have given me a lot to think about. I'm sure I'll be reading and re-reading your posts over the next few days.