I gotta say I feel much different now that I have accepted she she is no longer my W.
I feel at peace, yet still shocked, fear tries to set in, I still miss her, I feel less energized.
I used to be able to have so much energy, I guess due to my hopes that she would come back. Now it is gone.
This would be much easier if I didn't have to run into her so often. And if she had chosen other "Friends" that don't live right around the corner from my house.
But it is like this for a reason. Will continue to post and rant on here. Thanks!
I know the feeling. I sometimes sit there in shock to where my W and I are at this point. Saying "Hi" and "Hey" as we pass by each other. Not hugs, kisses on the cheeks, it is crazy to think that this is a person I have spent so much time with, known everything about, and this is where we are....
There was a quote I came by and when you stated "But it is like this for a reason" it made me think of it. Here it is:
"Someday, everything will make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason."
I am still here for you brother, much love and God bless. Keep posting.
M: 34 W: 33 S: 7 S: 14 months BD: 6/2015 Separation: 6/2015 Back and Forth between Home and Moms
I keep thinking about W.. and how she chose to leave her family to fulfill her new single lifestyle. Makes no sense that I have changed dramatically and she would find any and every excuse as to why she couldn't be with me.
I still feel guilty at times when I go out or do something without letting her know, kinda like I need to explain myself to her even though we don't talk.
I pray often and will continue to pray, it helps so much.
So many prayers have been answered.
I used to be an alcoholic when I was with my W I prayed and prayed and eventually she left and I quit drinking.
Not the way I wanted to quit but I quit.
He works in such mysterious ways nothing like the way we think nor can we comprehend.
I pray often and will continue to pray, it helps so much.
So many prayers have been answered.
He works in such mysterious ways nothing like the way we think nor can we comprehend.
I feel exactly the same. I would be a puddle on the floor right now if it weren't for prayer. I truly believe God is using this opportunity to help me become something greater than I was. I loved my role as mother and wife, so I'm curious about where this will take me.
I am not one to offer advice perhaps in time but for now believe me when I say you have lifted me at time when I have been close to dispare
Take care my friend
Ghost
That means a lot Ghost, thank you!
I will say a prayer for you my friend. Such a journey we must travel but in the end we will come out better than we came in, that I know, be grateful for our children and make as many memories as possible as we now know how life can change at any given moment. God bless you all!
I pray often and will continue to pray, it helps so much.
So many prayers have been answered.
He works in such mysterious ways nothing like the way we think nor can we comprehend.
I feel exactly the same. I would be a puddle on the floor right now if it weren't for prayer. I truly believe God is using this opportunity to help me become something greater than I was. I loved my role as mother and wife, so I'm curious about where this will take me.
Yes prayer does wonders, have faith and put your trust in GOD regardless of the situation we are in, we are all walking testimonies of the man upstairs, we are continuing to change into better people then we once were. Thank you JudyL!
Thought of all the good memories I have of us as a family. Shifted my thoughts to Questioning her character; Weak in character, not willing to fight nor even consider counseling, help, etc. Selfishness; to leave even after all the great changes I have made to keep my family together all for her to follow her trainer and fitness activities. Untrustworthy and deceiving; for lying and always getting caught, in her mind she was and is still not doing anything bad.
I pray for GOD to remove her from those people and that gym from her life, that have caused so much pain, anger, arguments and jealousy in my heart.
I am letting go of these emotions but I need help in prayer.
TODAY 09/28/15 W has kids, they went swimming as usual, they all seem to be having a lot of fun without me, as much as I am happy that they are happy, it hurts that I am not included, my D sends me pictures of them, they all look so happy. I don't have a pool so it bums me out.
I went to the beach with a friend of mine, was really fun. Went to church. Had a nice Lunch yesterday by myself, feels strange going to a restaurant/bar by yourself.
Today I am Grateful for: Having a home, a shelter to go to after work; Today’s Goals: Read 1 chapter for my course; Exercise Mindset today is: happy with myself.Leave
