Johne, you are doing great. I know it's rough, I know how hard it is and I know that you will make it through it. It just takes strength and time. I implore you, to get the books and read them, read them again and again.
What helped me was I made lists and gave myself small rewards. If I went a day without texting/calling her, I would reward myself. If I went a week without thinking about her, I would reward myself, etc. It's all about the journey my friend.
Me: 38 W: 32 S10 D6 T: 10 (02/2004) M: 7 (12/2007) Separation 02/2015 OM confirmed 01/2015, D mentioned 12/2014 D finalized 9/2016