confused newbie 2

[dday]

I am working at showing that I am ok. And will be whatever the outcome is. And, it was only one night, but I think I convinced myself of that somewhat. I still think she is beautiful and WAS one of the greatest people I have ever met. Starting to see some flaws now. Maybe the 'spell' is beginning to wear off. I'm still hoping and praying that we can work this out and be great again, but I'm being more realistic today. I'm still a good person and worthy of being loved. Having another good person to share my life with. Hope it is W, but that is her decision to make. I think I have finally started to let her go, and start moving forward. Taking care of my boys and myself, let her fall on her own. Maybe she will see what we had, maybe not. I'm not giving up, but hoping for the best and preparing for the worst