You guys may be right. It's something I don't give much thought to these days. I'm not trying to be unappreciative of your thoughts on the matter, I just don't give her too much space in my mind these days. If we were M and she hadn't betrayed me, asked for D, etc, then we could talk about it. As is it's history. Her emotions and perspectives are all her journey and has nothing to do with me anymore.

My journey has been one of working through the hurt this caused me so I DON'T seep with resentment for those wrongs, and I become more and more free to enjoy my own life. I'm getting there.

My posts above were more just recognizing how hurtful criticism is to me and being careful who I allow emotionally close to me. I feel better and better about who I am, what I am doing, and where I am going. I've got some good friends and family that are very supportive while still challenging me in a positive way when appropriate. You guys are part of that family. Anyone that's not a Zues fan, well, they can live it up and I hope they make the most of their experience, but it won't have a Zues in it. wink


Me:38 XW:38
T:11 years M:8 years
Kids: S14, D11, D7
BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15