Do you think I should instigate the next 'date' time, or let her decide?
We had a really good weekend and spent time together though no discussions of the A, BD or plans for the M were discussed, should I talk about the A or just be happy in our time together and rebuild it that way?
I suppose I know I am trying to mentally rush things rather bide my time.
I'm also SCARED that in a months time she will say nope the magic is there for her and she will go again (I have not mentioned this to W) and I will be back on the precipice looking over the edge.
Really struggling today so want to look at her mobile which I know is a real no no.
Wondering if it would be easier to let her go so I don't get hurt anymore and maybe I can heal....but yet she text me immediately when she completed her run.