Wife left, and I've only made it worse.

[EyeTie]

That is the biggest hurdle, Johne. Is breaking the cycles that do not work. I also suggest reading "Who moved my Cheese", Michelle mentions it in her book, it's like 40 pages but a very good read and offers insight that you may not have thought about.

Baby-steps buddy. Go 1 day without calling her, then maybe shoot for 2. It's hard, it stinks, it goes against EVERYTHING you think will work, but look at it like this, what do you have to lose? The constant text, phone calls, emails were not working, right? So change up the game plan.