My lizard and her tunnel ...

[late30s]

I want to hang out with her and watch Netflix, share a bunch of laughs. I want to wake up next to her again. I want to go house hunting with her. I want her to decorate our new house. I want to listen to her ramble on about her newest story or piece of art. I want to be a team handling the kids again. I want to lie down next to her when I go to sleep. I want to go on long walks with her again. I want to come home and be greeted by a hug. I want my best friend back. I want to stay up all night listening to cheesy songs and her telling me the stories about them.

She is an excellent story teller. I have always been able to just sit and listen to her talk. It's why I fell in love with her. She is captivating when she speaks. Lights up the whole room when she laughs. I want to hear her laugh again. I have just landed my dream job and I want her at my side. It was her dream for a long time too, I want to share it with her. I want to look toward a future filled with hope.

That's what I want from her. Not what I expect from her today, but that is what I want from her in the long run.