Wow, mind is blown 7

[Uphill]

Oh it wasn't like this in the beginning! I sat at home prolly about 3 weeks staring at the door, waiting for her to knock. I would cry myself to sleep, loathe in self pity and failed at anything I tried to do to get my mind off things... I was a mess! It wasn't like a light switch either. Baby steps. I started by cleaning the house one room at a time. Top to bottom. At that point I knew I had to do something but didn't want to be around anybody. So I found things to keep me occupied without leaving home. Then I started researching "how to get your girl back" type things and came across this board. Of all things I found this has been the only one I have been talking on more than a day! I tried some others and the people were rude. Had crappy advise (all the things that I already knew didn't work). After a few weeks of GAL at home, I ventured out. Now, going on 5 months since move out day, I usually have at least 4 days a week booked. Sometimes 7. It is getting easier, not easy but easier...

Sometimes I go hours without even a thought of XF. Sometimes such as tonight it doesn't go 5 minutes. Even that is a long way from where I began! That was the only thing on my mind 24 hours a day. Couldn't eat (dropped 30 lbs in 2 months) and I wasn't overweight to start. Couldn't sleep, now I usually don't lose any unless I'm too busy haha. Couldn't put my phone down for 2 minutes, just hoping it would ring. Hell, I used to do the dreaded drive by her appartment to see if she was home or anybody was there. Haven't done that in months now.

So on days like today, when I feel like I have made 0 progress, I sit back and think about how it was as recently as June!