Tonight is kinda funky, I'm not sure what triggered it but I am really missing XF and wishing things were "normal". Haven't had a back rub in months. Haven't had sex in months. Not even a hug other than S4... Haven't had anybody to "really" talk to. Empty dinner table. Nobody to tell how much I love them...

Gotta shake this quick, it will drive me nuts (or nuttier than I already am!) haha

Me 34, XF 27
Many years together
Son 4
Engaged
Not engaged
Many false starts by XF
7/16 new girlfriend comes into my life
2/17 girlfriend moves in my home