welp.. wife moved out just about 2 months ago now. I have not exchanged a phone call, email or text with her in a month. Definitely helps my mental state but am still sad about the situation. I think I was always looking too much into the future and not enjoying the here and now. Actually, that future disappearing in a second is probably what bothers me most. Lots of learning though and I will not repeat the same mistakes. My next R either with the wife or someone else will be good. I also realized that my wife was not affectionate enough to me. I really felt good when she was. It is something I needed more of. Since this has happened a few times, I was insecure and that would have reassured me making more comfortable in the relationship which would have made things better. But I never talked to her about it. It is tough walking around day after day knowing that it could end anytime. But there is another lesson learned... don't do that.
She took the 'married' tag down on FB. Stung a little but is both sad and good. Obviously, I had been waiting for it and it made me sad. But as soon as she did that, I was able to block her. That may seem childish but it is very helpful (been here before). We have too many mutual friends and she is popping up all over the place on that thing. Once I see her pop up, I would be tempted to look at her page, and that could be bad news. Also, she was showing up on the chat which also could lead to a moment of weakness. What do you all think of that... good move, bad move?
I do have a new goal. I think everyday about how many days it has been since I last contacted her. I can't detach if I am doing that. So starting today, no more keeping track.
In terms of the big D, I am not even thinking about it. If she brings it up, she brings it up. If not, I will wait until the new year and re-evaluate.
