Lost - just caught up on your situation. You are not alone with your feelings of sadness and sorrow, trying to sort your life and children's. I am not wise with words, but offer a ton of support. The children and I have also recently been left by an international WAS. It is hard to pick up the pieces of my own life, let alone the lives of the children. The children don't understand why he must leave the country to sort his life.
Yep, he is being Mr. Selfish! But the kids need a mom who can keep herself together. Be kind to yourself. Allow yourself what you need to heal and feel whole.
You didn't break him and you can't fix him. These are his demons that he is trying to sort.
TY dejavu2. I don't know what I need to heal. I don't know that I have anything left to give myself. There are times, more often than not, when I feel very selfish doing anything for myself. I struggle with how to be there for my kids and fit in doing something for myself. Unfortunately, with my sitch and schedule, my kids are alone a lot when they aren't in school. Even though I long for time to try & go out without them, even for a run, it feels wrong. It's more time they are alone and it's affecting all of us.
M 43 H 48 M 19y T 20y D 14 S 12 H returned home from out of country 8/8/15 BD 8/11/15 EA Began end of June/beginning of July 2015; ongoing PA H denies ILYBINILWY
