Sending you strength Shotgun. You're a warrior and a half for enduring all that you have and coming out of it without being bitter at the world. If I could, I'd shake your hand and introduce you to my sister (in due time!)
Keep taking it one day at a time. It's ok to be lonely. It's ok to feel loss. As Pema says, lean into them. See what's in the loneliness for you. See how you can fill that yourself with interests, hobbies and curiosities. It's a big beautiful world out there.
Strength, and a big man hug to you shotgun.
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