I realize today that she is at the beach with her GF. I have the kids this week so I will enjoy them to the best of my ability.
It seems she enjoys inflicting cruetly towards me. I just have to stand up and get off the floor and learn how to navigate this pain, betryal and feelings of loss. This person who she is now is not the person I knew and loved for 20 years and had two kids with. That is the hardest part. The rejection of the life we worked so hard to build for all of us.
It is unbelievable to listen to her lie about where she is and what she is doing to our kids. THey cried for her last night and all I could do was just read them a story and and run their back. Distraction was the name of the game.
Just wow.
Just waiting on paperwork now - at this point I wish it would hurry up. I am ready to do this.
