One of my cousins finally succumbed to a disease she had been battling for years. My WW and I took in my cousins son about 7 years ago or so. He is now in his early 20's, but he considers myself and the WW his "parents". The memorial was on Saturday and my WW brought the kids and stuck around.
The entire time, anywhere I went, she was always a few steps away. Granted this is my family who are not exactly thrilled with her choices, but everyone was really nice to her and acted like things are fine. All afternoon, the WW would touch my arm, rub my hair, etc, essentially putting on her little show that she likes to do, all the while my aunts/uncles and such would say "Are you sure you guys are getting a divorce?" or "I think she is having second thoughts, look at the way she looks at you." things like that.
When it was over, I walked her and the kids to her car, gave the kids hugs and kisses and then gave my WW a hug. She leaned in for a kiss (I think) and I turned my head and she got my cheek instead. I just said "Um...Did you try to kiss me?" and she didn't say anything, I then followed with "Yeah, don't do that." Said goodbye to the kids and walked away.
8 months or so ago, I would have jumped at the chance to kiss her again. Thinking that it might reassure her of where we are in life and to stay together. But at this point I am really content with the way things are and really am happy to move forward. Would I consider getting back together with her? Possibly, but it's not my #1 goal anymore so I am happy about that too. I don't think about her really, I think about my future and my kids. I imagine what a positive marriage could be like where everything is 50/50 and not "her way or the highway" like she wanted. I am not sure, I think it's getting easier.
Me: 38 W: 32 S10 D6 T: 10 (02/2004) M: 7 (12/2007) Separation 02/2015 OM confirmed 01/2015, D mentioned 12/2014 D finalized 9/2016
