have i been making mistakes too long part 6

[tkdmme]

I just want to vent. I am so sick of having no one to talk to. I want so bad to talk to my W. However I know that it will only make things worse. I have tried everything and nothing has worked. Even DBing doesn't seem to have an effect on her. I know that DB is for me but I want so bad to have my W back. I want to tell her how much I love her and how I am worried about her but I know it wont help matters. How long can this last? I know that is a stupid question. Im just praying that I can keep this up until something starts to move in one direction or another.

This L stuff has me upset. I don't have the money to hire a L and neither does she. We still share the same bank account. I just want so bad for this to be over.