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[tadpole1025]

Thanks Exquisite and Drew.

I've been away for a while. Been trying to get my head straight. Just updating and shooting from the hip, but first:

Because if she was to come crying at your door tonight, you would be VERY reluctant in taking her in. So, it is not in relation to her !! What is it? When you find the answer, you will have reach acceptance in all it' s form and shape.

I'm not sure. For the most part, I think life is good. I have bad days and sometimes even bad weeks, but overall, I'm ok except for a few changes I've noticed in myself. Mostly, my love for animals and a strange desire to protect them. All of them. It's very very VERY strange. My stepbrother that I rarely talk to posted something on my Facebook page about going dove hunting back when we were kids. (Our grandfather used to take us.) I actually removed the post because I felt ashamed and didn't want anyone to know that I used to do that back when I was 10 years old. I felt terrible.

And yes, you are right. I DO NOT WANT EX BACK. Period. That "want" left long ago.

Drew, I've got mixed feelings about that. I've done it a few times in the past and wasn't really happy with it....may need to go again.

Just random stuff:

I haven't seen my "friend" at work in a while. She has been in Hawaii with her mom. She'll be back to work on Wednesday. I've kind of missed her. (Probably not good.) Her birthday is also Wednesday. I bought her a little glass handmade Penguin. That's her favorite animal. (Mine too.) She brought me a Penguin made out of stone a few months back when she went to Tucson. So, I'll give her the Penguin I got for her on Wednesday when she returns to work.

Last week on the way home from work, I was at a gas station and saw a little kitten roaming around the premises. I went back in and purchased some cat food and gave it to the cat. Two days later, I saw it dead in the road in front of the gas station. It physically made me sick. I was very sick to my stomach for about 30 minutes. (That's happened a few times.)

I've never been like this. As mentioned above, I used to hunt doves and quail and go fishing. To be honest, I just never cared. I think it is a good quality to have, but I think it is a little extreme with me.

My Arizona Cardinals are 2-0! I'm also in a fantasy league with S29. I'm also 2-0 in my league. Speaking of leagues, we are still considering joining a bowling league. Just haven't got around to it....

I've decided to actually do something for ME next summer. I'm going on a cruise. I've been thinking about going on a singles cruise or something for a while, but I've decided to take an Alaskan cruise instead. I want to see the whales.

With the exception of a restaurant here and there, I'm still not getting out. Was going to swim tonight, but it is getting cloudy and looking like rain.

I worked 60 hours this week. It was offered so I took it. I figured if I'm not going to do anything anyways, I might as well work and make some extra money.

I'm going to go for now. Just wanted to update.

Tad