Feeling Numb

[Elly4]

So, I think I've been screwing up. It's hard not to when we are in the same house. I've been asking how his day was, what his plans are, where he's going...all in a friendly way, but realized I'm falling into the pursuit model again. Bad me. It's hard for me, I know...codependent...to just sit in the distance that he has created. I know, I could go out somewhere but I'm working full time now and want to be home to spend time with my son. I am not going to let him chase me out of the house with his silence. Just have to climb on the horse again.

Silly tall horse.