Need advice for a WW who left Part 4

[dwh15]

V, you are such a sweetie. Wish I could give you a great big hug. So I'm just home for a few minutes, otherwise spending my night getting trained up bartending. Kind of a light crowd, but still a dozen or so people and I've been talking with some old friends so it's enjoyable.

I did find out that one of my friends was actually the one who convinced WW to break it off with the very 1st OM a few years ago, the one who I didn't know for sure was an OM until recently. And for a while, I guess she did break it off, but eventually broke down and went back to him. No idea what caused the final breakup, but doesn't matter, since WW moved onto yet another OM within a few months. My friend thinks that WW has serious mental issues, and I guess most people would probably agree.

It's a mixed blessing getting all these stories this far after the fact. On the one hand, it helps me piece together things and does solidify my resolve to move on with my life. But it does tend to open up fresh wounds, although not nearly so painful now as before. I'll probably continue to get fresh pieces of info for a while until the whole picture is in place, and I'm OK with that. Sometimes I start to think "what was wrong with me that WW didn't love me", but then I realize it's not me at all, it's her. She can't truly love anyone right now because she doesn't love herself. And I know she did love me for years, until something inside her broke.

Anyway, just venting. I don't need the standard advice about detachment, etc. I know, I know. I really am doing a lot better these days and see a bright future ahead.