running around like a chicken without a head

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I hate this feeling and I feel like I'm not getting any better at changing my self. I know my flaws and what needs to be done but I just feel like I can't change it. I'm sorry you have to go through this too. Why can't they just realize what their doing and cone back home. I envy the couples that reconcile. I pray day and night that it's in God's will that we will return to each other. The other hard part is braking the news to my family as no one knows what's really happing. I'm so scared to tell my dad and my brothers...