I'm not in a very good place this weekend. I was going to out tonight so I asked H if he can watch the kids, but he said he is working all day. Something about his response gave me a hunch that he is lying. He kept saying sorry. He wouldn't have to say sorry if he is picking up extra shift to make more money. Also I saw his work clothes in the room and he didn't come home to change or shower. So when I was out with kids this morning, I drove by his work. I don't know why, but I couldn't help it. Sure enough his car was not there. I don't ask his whereabouts anymore, but he is out everyday. So if I ask once or twice a week for him to watch the kids, does he have to lie? I told him I can't afford to pay extra( like going out time) for a babysitter, so I have no choice to stay, but he is not working and doing who knows what. I'm angry. I want to say something. Is it ok to say something? ( without mentioning that I went by his work) How should I say it?
