I understand that I need to focus on myself, but separating myself is difficult because my life was my family...wife and boys. I just cannot fathom how someone could leave or break a family up.
When wife and I were living together money, me working a lot on weekends, and always drinking when watching ball games. I asked her what the issues were and she said get a stable Job (my business of 10 years was struggling, got it. Now two Jobs. She said stop drinking, done haven't drank since June 29, 2015. Respect her, I thought I did, but I am working on it, but I get frustrated b/c she has started making things up and talking like a book or advice absorbed robot.
In terms of "What can I change"? What do you mean?
I am working on what I want to be and how to get there, but my kids are everything to me. My wife really gets to me now and I sadly told her she made me sick! I asked to talk to her and she started jabbing me about my issues and what she thinks my problems are. I was having a bad couple of days and told her I missed my boys. She literally told a mutual friend that her other friends and guiders to her to make me hurt and make me feel the pain.
God, I just want to be fair and do what is right for my boys, even moving on but it's been almost two months now.
I will continue to work at this to become a better Strongr 2.0!
