panic is setting in I'm having trouble looking at my kids and my patience with them is so thin right now. they're not getting ready. If we don't leave in 2 min, we'll be late I can't do this all by myself
I should have put all of my feelings into the kiss. I should've kissed him sooner. Tried to initiate physical contact. Tried to make love. I need to go back and do it again. I want him to come back. I don't want to want him to come back. I want him to never come back ever again. Never feel this hurt again. Never hear about how he loves this OW with a feeling he's never felt before.
Oh God please ....
this just hurts so much
Lost -
Don't worry about whatever happened last night with H. You acted like a human, a wife, and a mother. You are strong enough to do this. And you can withstand the pain you're feeling now.
I'm sorry that he couldn't reciprocate your feelings. There's nothing that hurts more than baring your souland seeing your feelings just left hanging there with no validation or reciprocation. That's why we try not to expeess those feelings; it only leaves us hurt and angry and upset. But I can understand why you did it and I can't guarantee I wouldn't do the same thing, even now.
Here's what you need to take away from it though. You could have given him the best kiss of his life or given him the best sex of his life and it wouldn't have mattered any. Maybe you would have felt better, maybe worse.
But here we are now. What are you going to do today? What do you hope to do tomorrow? What do you plan to do for next week?
