panic is setting in I'm having trouble looking at my kids and my patience with them is so thin right now. they're not getting ready. If we don't leave in 2 min, we'll be late I can't do this all by myself
I should have put all of my feelings into the kiss. I should've kissed him sooner. Tried to initiate physical contact. Tried to make love. I need to go back and do it again. I want him to come back. I don't want to want him to come back. I want him to never come back ever again. Never feel this hurt again. Never hear about how he loves this OW with a feeling he's never felt before.
Oh God please ....
this just hurts so much
M 43 H 48 M 19y T 20y D 14 S 12 H returned home from out of country 8/8/15 BD 8/11/15 EA Began end of June/beginning of July 2015; ongoing PA H denies ILYBINILWY
