Painter and Starsky thank you for your perspectives!

I guess I need to let this play out; there is no reason to rush to D just because I'm hurt/angry.

I can put this marriage stuff on the back burner this weekend and focus on my kids …one has a game Saturday and another moves out to college Sunday.
Down to only one still at home …weird!

But I still don't like how much it hurts. Each day he doesn't call me feels like a new rejection. And I find it SO HARD to stop my thoughts ("it's 6:30. Certainly he's home from work now. He hasn't called or texted. He's obviously not even thinking about me. If he missed me he would've called or texted. I'm not even on his radar screen" etc.)

But I've grown enough through this site to make some better choices. Tonight when I had my poor me thoughts I chose to text a couple of my best girlfriends, and see if any of them were also at loose ends and wanted to get together for some appetizers and a drink. If I can do that, and fill my time up with positive things, that helps me keep my mind off him and stop looking at my phone every 30 seconds.

So I made it through tonight, and the weekend should be easy enough since I'll be busy with kids stuff. At least in the daytime. Nights alone are still tough.


M: 48
H: 44
M: 2 / T: 7
My kids: S22, S18, S17, D12
H no kids of his own
BD: 7/12/2015 / moved out same day
Piecing 9/6/2015
Moved back in 10/2015