HI Zeus...His actions do mean nothing I was more wondering if it was typical actions all WAS do? Nothing he does should make me think any different of him and his ways. Of course his actions to give me different feelings because I am still attached. Yes I know he is not recommitting. No way would he. Knowing his cycles he will have to get tired of her or she will get tired of him and then he will decide to recommit but then it can be my choice! It helps looking at his patterns/cycles. I typically know what his next "move" is. Or at least I think I do which I think will help me be more prepared. Of course he will run to her. He just had to tell the mothers of his children I left, his children I left, his friends and soon his family. He will want to make the best of it and do all he can to show everyone he did the right thing. I find that just gives me more time to work on me! He is only helping me right now!
Yes his feelings may be construed differently. I may feel they are one thing he may feel he is just being pleasant. I will never know and nor will he likely ever share his feelings. His behavior certainly shows something totally different than what he is likely feeling. Hopefully he is having an O $hit moment! and figuring out he may have messed up!
Yes I did walk away and I am getting help to have a better life with or without him That is a choice he will have to make and based on his actions I can CHOOSE to make.
I was sure leaving was going to be terrible I would never be ok but in just these very few days I feel very much less stressed.
Only other thing I need help figuring out for today anyways is do I go dark? Do I try to stay on a friends basis? How do I do holidays like if he asks D8 and I to go to pumpkin patch? Should I ask him and other two kids to attend with us? Do I only answer texts when he texts first? I do not want to throw away the chances of R or friendship but I also need to chose to do what is best for me. Please keep in mind when answering this I will be attending family events with his family as they are my family so I do not need extra wedges!
