Thanks mleigh and Bright, you are all right, I know it - slowly and let him make the moves ... sometimes it's easy to get caught up in it all.
So talking of moving - h has rented a new place and is moving into it this weekend!
He sent me photos of it on Wed, it's lovely and ironically (I don't know if he did it on purpose) he has picked a new build on an estate just outside the town, it is the same type of house we chose when we were both moving pre bd. It's the only type of house we have not lived in yet ! Eventually the plan was to buy an old villa by the sea .....ah the dream ....
He has had to take on a 12 month lease so that means that should we reconcile then I would be the one moving - he keeps saying to me that this will be on my terms, so I asked that ow does not go anywhere near the house. He replied "she does not know where I am moving to, she never will. I have redirected my post and dealt with all the household bills so they are up to date, then I removed myself from them, so after this weekend I will not have anything to do with her again"
He went on to say he is worried about collecting his stuff, he did not tell her it was happening until last night as he did not want to give her time to heighten the drama more than it already is with her, plus he is concerned what she may do to his stuff. Her c are staying at the house this weekend so he is hoping she will take them out while he is there, he is concerned that she will kick off in front of them, I hope she does not put them through the ordeal. I told him to remain calm and quiet, they do not deserve to be caught up in this.
And back to me, because everything seems to have become about h and his dramas lately. Work is not going well, I am battling against idiots, guys that are there for the paycheck and don't care about anything else, don't think about anyone else or the work that I put in to make my dept run smoothly (which helps them in the long run as they don't have to go near it anymore). My body is on burnout, I have bruises all over me, my knees have two whopping painful ones from kneeling on the floor, my hands are hot and swollen from repetitive motion, its not a good situation. On top of that a couple of the team members are treating me like a 5yr old and I seriously am not being paid enough to do this - I get paid the same as the plebs who chuck chips on the shelves ...literally chuck them ...
So before I walk out the door (which I know I can't do as I need the paycheck) I am going to ask for some time off to reset and recover.
