Thank you V, your words are always so calming for me. I appreciate you to no end. This is still a mix of emotions. For the first three days of the week I was a trainwreck, for the last two I've been in this eerie state of calm. Calm is such a foreign feeling right now that it actually has me on guard.
Oddly enough I got one of the first "outreach" texts from my W in 9 months. Meaning she messaged me about something that didn't have to do with logistics, finances, or our dog.
It read, "Hi. I know you have a lot of big stuff coming up and wanted to see how you were doing. Sending you lots of love and good vibes."
I sat on it for a day and then wrote back telling her a bit about the weekend retreat (she knew I was there), that I was busy with my new project and sending her love and good vibes back. Left it at that.
My mindreading gut says that she's checking in because I've been served papers and there is now distance between us. Our anniversary is next week too, that could be what's coming up. Not sure. It's safer for her now to speak to me without worry that it means I'll think she wants to reconcile.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
