Sometimes just hearing from a fellow DBer is a pick-me-up - I know I get a little buzz every time someone replies on my thread...so here I am. I hear you and you are not alone. There are hundreds of us. We are all here on this board, trying to be the best we can be. You are here because you care about yourself and your sitch. that is admirable.
Here are some ideas that may help get you through the day:
What has helped me in the past is doing something that triggers memories of better days. Music is a very visceral trigger for me. Find some songs that you used to listen to when you were young and fearless. Play them on endless loop today. There are songs that are uplifting for LBSs in particular. I have been toying with starting a thread like this and have even posted a bunch of DB songs in my old thread.
Perhaps you can go outside and do some exercise. That helps me tremendously. I know what a "runner's high" is now.
Watch a Ted talk. they are full of people who have transcended their chitty circumstances.
Lastly, if all else fails: I recently heard someone use the term "cycling". It is fancy way of saying that you will have good days and bad days - especially early on. It is ok to have bad days. You can't go over, under or around them. You have to go *through* them. Allow yourself to feel the emotional pain. It would be abnormal not to feel it.
