have i been making mistakes too long part 6

[tkdmme]

Im not sure why but I feel like I have to prove that to her that im not getting into her business. I see where I messed up and you are right AZZ, I should have just walked away.

Im doing good for the most part but when she accused me of something that I didn't do I get angry and want say something. This is something that I need to work on. SHe has been accusing me of a lot of things lately. Like ive said in previous posts, it seems the more I detach and start to GAL the angrier she gets.

I one point in our sitch she acted like she felt sorry for me. Now she acts like she truly hates me. The longer this goes on the less I want her back. I don't want to feel that way but I think its natural. I am protecting myself from further emotional pain.

Also, I am sexually frustrated. I know its wrong but part of me wants to go out and pick up a girl for a one night fling. I have never had trouble with women and being a piano player, it would not be hard. I have not acted on these feelings but I really want to. Im just being honest and I know it would be wrong to do something like that. I have been married for 16+ years and have turned down loads of women. I have never cheated but im not sure if it would cheating at this point. However I do know that if I did something like that I would regret it and feel guilty.