Another day forward, woke up not different than any other day, missing my wife and family, missing my home and what we had (at least the good parts). It gets easier everyday, but it is always hard to wake up and not see them and laugh with them, hold them, and tell them that I love them.
Spoke to W yesterday, she asked how I was I told her much better everyday is getting easier. She goes on to tell me that eventually I will come to realize that this is for the best, that our R was plagued with lots of issues and there were many red flags. I don't disagree, I validate, but it hurts to hear how final her words are. I remind myself this is where she is at the moment and I can't argue her feelings. I have faith that God has something bigger for me and her. I don't know if that means we'll R but we'll be somewhere better in the future. For now, I am giving her the space and time she asks for, being supportive from a distance but also not trying to rescuer her. I have hope that things can turnaround and her and I can have a new M, but again only time and our Lord will determine that. I will continue to focus on myself, focus on being a better person and work on my detachment, compassion, love, and on my children.
Today's PMA
Quote of the day:
“When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.” Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
