The first step is always the hardest!

[Zues126]

4, I think I speak for the entire DB forums when I say we're all just so glad you got the heck out of that situation. Doesn't mean burn any bridges or rebound or anything. But just not to be in that environment has to be a relief.

I know you still are clinging to hope this will wake up H, even if you don't think it's likely. I don't know that will help you, but I do think that's normal for being where you are. Accepting reality is really tough, because they are still right there.

I compared it to a loved one becoming a missing person rather than having a fatal crash. In the crash it is very final. In the case of a missing person the hope gradually fades for weeks, months, years...does it ever truly go away?

I know what's in front of you has to be overwhelming. Have faith it will work out. You won't starve, you won't melt, you'll be ok. In fact, soon you'll be a whole new person. I can't believe you have come this far in 75 days...