I know in my mind that I don't NEED her, haven't convinced my heart yet, I think. I will try more detaching. Time apart, and keeping myself busy with more fun activities will go a long way in that, I think. My cousin is a farmer, and it's harvest time. I will go play farmhand for a few weeks when I get bored and lonely.

Have the boys again tonight, and no ballgames. I will try to have fun with them, and cook them a nice meal.

Try to find some more 180s too.

You guys are a great help!

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Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....