Confused newbie

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I actually like going to church. That is a newer thing for me, since I have been praying constantly, and a priest is my counselor. So, I want to go for me. I want to raise the kids in a church too, I believe it is important. I don't want her to feel as if we can be "friends" and not be M. I have went to church a few times when she had the boys and they didn't go.

When she talks to me at the game, it always starts out about the kids... then changes to whatever topic she wants.

I want her to see and feel what divorce will be like whenever I have given up. Then maybe she will change her mind before I really do give up, and R has no chance.