Painter and Starsky,

I owe it so much to this board.
First GALing and L now, I was really hesitant and I couldn't have done it without your nudge. Thank you very much.

I went to IC today and she also told me the importance of taking care of/protecting myself and kids. " Put yourself on the front burner now. Sure, people oppose it when it first happens, telling you to go back to the old ways, but you are not being selfish by taking care of you."

So I contacted one of the L offices I found. Still waiting for their call back, but I took the tiny step anyways...

I also unfollowed H's instagram since it only gives me anxiety no matter what I find or don't find...

It's funny, though H has not been treating me well at all, I still care so much about H's wellbeing, I still so want to protect and take care of his financials, his physical and mental health etc...