I don't feel hopeless about my life. I feel pretty hopeless about M. I guess if I was truly emotionally ready to get a D I would have pushed it forward. Even though I'm 99.9% sure it will end that way in a few months I guess I'm not ready for that piece of reality. Everyone says to go at my own pace. What that pace is changes from day to day.
I am still adjusting to the fact that H is gone and I'm still surprised every day at the extend of his detachment. Although I don't think it's complete on his part yet either or he would have pushed more.
Me53 H48 M 13 No children together BDMay '15 PA June '15 H moves out,files 8/15 wants "quick divorce" but does nothing Me sending proposal 12/15, court dates upcoming
