You said "it's hard for me to fully get on with my life living in this house"
This may not help, but it's something to consider. It is natural for you to feel and be ambivalent. I take a deep breath and keep going. Does the ambivalent feeling and feelings of hopelessness go anywhere? Not necessarily. This becomes a case of just putting one foot in front of the other, as slowly as necessary, and carrying on. Fun? In no way shape or form! Necessary? Probably.
Thanks for all your posts... they have really helped me.
Buttercup
Me 50 H 51 M 17 T 20 D16 H EA Feb 2014 BD Sept 2015 H moved out Nov 2015 W Filed D papers Mar 2016