have i been making mistakes too long part 6

[tkdmme]

Not a bad night at the tavern but not many folks were out last night. I played well and the folks that were there seemed to enjoy it. When I got home the W was still up and sitting in the car port. She said "hey" I said hello and went straight to bed.

Calling those Lawyers yesterday really messed me up. I was so angry that I was having to do this. This is all fear based. I have never been in trouble in my life so I have never had to contact a lawyer for anything. All I know is what other people are telling me and what ive seen on television.

I just know in my heart that she is going to take all she can from me. Since I've been detaching she seems more angry. I have been making small talk with her since I've been DBing but that is going to stop.

I don't have anything else to say to her at this point.

Today has been ok but since BD I haven't been able to get it off my mind for very long. Im getting better at it but I have a long way to go. Im having a lot of fun with the kids these days but I miss that adult R.

My parents are coming down this weekend and the W will be out of town so it should be a great time.

On a side note, I have been feeling weird. like really edgy. its not mental. it feels like I have drank too much coffee or something. Its like a knot in my stomach all day. Like the feeling you get when you realize you have just locked your keys in the car. Weird?