H asks me as he's leaving for work this morning "Are you going to work today?"

Man, how I wish I wasn't. Even though I've been so emotional when alone, I cannot express in words how much I need the time away.

Wish I could just jet off like H to a new lover, a job I love with TONS of downtime and a life of little responsibilities. How I long for that time when I'm not so burdened with so many responsibilities.

I'm calling out on Friday. I think I should be able to make it until then. Besides, it's back to night shift on Sat.

M 43 H 48
M 19y T 20y
D 14
S 12
H returned home from out of country 8/8/15
BD 8/11/15
EA Began end of June/beginning of July 2015; ongoing
PA H denies
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