I have had no contact with H and being away from this board and not reading this everyday has helped me to detach. I have not made any attempt to look at our joint accounts/ bills etc. for this I am proud of myself. I have also agreed the draft financial proposal from my solicitors and started this proceeding though I initially dreaded it. I now feel this was my best course of action.
What scares me now is am am beginning to feel anger and hatred for my H for what he has done/ doing. I don't want to become bitter about this. Thankfully my new job keeps me very focussed during the day and am exhausted by the time I come home.
I can't lie though, and say I never think of my sitch any more, still do, everyday, but no longer obsessing about it and accepting my new life more than I would of done 2 weeks ago.
Both 47 M 20 T25 S 18 EA July 11- Jan 12. ILYBNILWY Oct EA April 13 -July 13 Move to work abroad Sept 14 re establish contact with OW while away D bomb 22/12/14 D filed papers served 17/03/15