Wow, mind is blown 7

[asitis]

You just said you tend to be too hard on yourself a couple posts before, and here you go being hard on yourself unnecessarily. We all have that little bit of hope, whether we admit it too ourselves or not. We all let it get to us from time to time. But what most of us would be better off doing is being kind and forgiving to ourselves and do less second guessing and self-critiquing. If you were a friend coming to you to discuss your sitch, is this how you'd approach him or her? I suspect from following your thread that you'd be kind, warm, point out the places where they need to not be so hard on themselves or take too much of the responsibility for their problems onto their shoulders.

Now, can you do that with yourself?

Hang in there. You're doing better than you think you are.