ERRGGGGGGGGHHHHH I want to be free of the pain. I dont want to wait around months or years for it to go away. Im trying to be patient but it hurts.
Hav - I havent read all of your thread yet, but in reading this post, I wanted to chime in quickly.
Think of it this way --- if you broke your arm, you wouldnt be mad at yourself for feeling pain, right? Youd allow it to slowly heal before you went out and started tossing around a football, right? So, allow yourself some time to heal and to grieve. I know it hurts now. And will tomorrow. But, its OK. It will be OK.
